There is no way to inventory my current feelings. Worse yet I couldn't tell you where they came from. I can say that a children's book may have changed my life and my ability to leave things, emotions, moments, feelings of inadequacy, self doubt and internal torment right where they ended. To not carry them across the travels of my existence. I do not care if you do not understand my reasons, i do not care if you do not appreciate my methods, I am this much more near to what may be happiness. I think I am happier for it,and at the same time a little lost.